HAPPY EASTER....

Well AJ is away in DC enjoying the big city life. I'm here in this little place basically spending the holiday alone. I went out last night only because AJ encouraged me, but as usual, it was a sideshow. There were a lot of people from out of town due to the big softball tourney, and actually met some seemingly nice people, with which I spent our entire conversation telling them how much I missed AJ.

Oh well. HAPPY EASTER everyone. Let's take today and be thankful for the things in our lives that are meaningful.

Wohoo..

Well it may be finally happening.. not getting my hopes up, but I finally do my walk through tomorrow (friday) and HOPEFULLY close next week. Then the FUN will begin again.

Had a good conversation CA last pm... it's always great to communicate with him, even through hyperspace.

maggie 

Maggie.....

I Know, we are all partial to our pets, but I have to tell you, I miss my pet terribly. Since my back surgery, she has been staying at her vacation home with CR until I recoup enough to care for her. Right now, every time I stick my key in my lock, I automatically expect her to be waiting on me. My enthusiasm quickly dimenishes once I remember she's not on the other side of the door.

Maggie is a English bulldog with some american bulldog in her background. Basically she looks like a tall English Bulldog. She is the ripe old age of 12 1/2, although I don't think she realizes it. She is quite spry and loves to wrestle and play with AJ. I think she has deemed him as her designated playmate. She has deemed CR as her designated "treat giver" and her "take me on a extra walk" person. To her I think I'm her caregiver. She plays with me, but not with the intensity she does with AJ. She is more "loving" to me than anything.

I did get to visit her today at CR's. I rolled around on the floor with her a bit and took her for a walk. Immediately on her seeing my truck, she went to the back door expecting me to put her in. When she realized I wasn't, she went around to the back door, still waiting, then in last desperation, she tried the other side. She finally realized today was not the day she was getting to go home. We went back inside and after a few more minutes of romping and seeing a huge smile on her face, it was time for me to go.

I simply can't wait until I'm well enough for her to come home.

Maggie.....

I Know, we are all partial to our pets, but I have to tell you, I miss my pet terribly. Since my back surgery, she has been staying at her vacation home with CR until I recoup enough to care for her. Right now, every time I stick my key in my lock, I automatically expect her to be waiting on me. My enthusiasm quickly dimenishes once I remember she's not on the other side of the door.

Maggie is a English bulldog with some american bulldog in her background. Basically she looks like a tall English Bulldog. She is the ripe old age of 12 1/2, although I don't think she realizes it. She is quite spry and loves to wrestle and play with AJ. I think she has deemed him as her designated playmate. She has deemed CR as her designated "treat giver" and her "take me on a extra walk" person. To her I think I'm her caregiver. She plays with me, but not with the intensity she does with AJ. She is more "loving" to me than anything.

I did get to visit her today at CR's. I rolled around on the floor with her a bit and took her for a walk. Immediately on her seeing my truck, she went to the back door expecting me to put her in. When she realized I wasn't, she went around to the back door, still waiting, then in last desperation, she tried the other side. She finally realized today was not the day she was getting to go home. We went back inside and after a few more minutes of romping and seeing a huge smile on her face, it was time for me to go.

I simply can't wait until I'm well enough for her to come home.

change, change, change.....

Well AJ is away in Boston interviewing for his fellowship. While in transit, he got an official offer from Dallas, which was good news for him, because he liked the program so much. Plus he will have the opportunity to stay after the first year as a Junior Attending, which would be great for me. I hate to go with him someplace and only stay in a job 1 year. Doesn't look great on a resume'.

My best friend in the whole world, CA has taken a new job in SLC. I haven't heard the details yet, but I'm sure he changed partly because he didn't get the raise he deserved. Good for him!! Can't wait to hear the details.

Yesterday, I took CR another one of my best friends to the gym with me. We did 30 mins of cardio, then I walked him through a whole body workout. He is probably cursing me today. At least by getting him to work out, I want miss it as much.

My back is healing great. Almost off all pain meds and I feel wonderful. I don't know why I didn't have this done sooner. I do miss my hard workouts though. I should be able to start some physical therapy in a few weeks. In the meantime, I guess CR will have to be my outlet!!!

I should be closing on my new loft in a week or so. Only a year overdue. I originally was scheduled to close March 31st, 2004. Maybe the construction crew forgot to hang a new calendar. The only reason I stuck with it so long was due to the great deal I'm getting. This is definitely an investment, but also an outlet for me. I owned homes before, but always with someone else. I remodeled and decorated with the 2 of us in mind. At this point AJ and I still live seperately, which has been a good thing for me. I've only lived alone for about 6 months my entire life. I finally feels like I'm accomplishing something on my own.

I'm a Knight...

The Knight You scored 50% Cardinal, 25% Monk, 32% Lady, and 62% Knight!

You are the hero. Brave and bold. You are strong and utterly selfless. You are also a pawn to your superiors and will be lucky if you live very long. If you survive the Holy wars you are thrust into you will be praised for your valor and opportunities both romantic and financial will become available to you.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 67% on Cardinal You scored higher than 1% on Monk You scored higher than 32% on Lady You scored higher than 89% on Knight

Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on Ok Cupid

That's what friends are for....

Well in my last few post I think everyone could tell exactly how down I was about my life in general. One evening I got a text message from CA, just a nice note that put a smile on my face. The next day I sent him a text and thanked him for making me feel better. He of course sent me messages that really changed my mood and perked me up. CA has always has uncanny timing and just always seems to know when I need a pick me up.

AJ just returned from interviewing in Houston. He seemed to enjoy his limited time there, and was extremely excited about the shopping! While he was gone I got an email from a hospital group in Houston wanted me to apply for a position. I spoke to one of the recruiters today and the position sounds really interesting. I have to admit, it has changed my outlook about Houston.

AJ has several more interviews before any final decisions are made but this is really an exciting time!!

better....

well today was a much better day than the last few. Slept pretty well last night, even though AJ was at his place preparing for his interview in Houston. Anyway, I decided that it is time I persue some of the plans I've wanted to do for a while. I've had business ideas for years and have yet had the balls to try to put them in motion, or at least explore them more.

Today I began my journey and started some planning and collecting information. From here we will see where it goes.

I miss AJ and can't wait for him to return home.

down..

is the best way to describe my mood as of late. I feel malcontent with life in general. Since my surgery, I spend the majority of my days alone either sitting around the house (which usually involves sleeping) or walking randomly around downtown Birmingham. I visit the local coffee shop frequently, even though I had given up coffee, it is nice to be around people.

I've discovered some nice architecture around time and some wonderful old buildings that are being restored to their former glory. Many I would love to get in to see!

With so much time on my hands, and thoughts running through my head it had given me lots of time to examine where I am in my life, where I would like to be and wonder "how the hell am I gonna get there".

Enough rambling.. back to my current life... walking and sleeping.

restless.....

well, after climbing in bed at an early hour and trying to forget my world around me, AJ called and showed up with dinner. We ate and chatted a bit and i opted to return to bed. I was restless all night and just couldn't get comfortable. I was then awoken by some random noise around 4 am, although i had been tussling all night. I was disoriented, but had a vision of 2 guys cleaning out the downstairs of my apartment, starting with the big screen. I could only think, I'm in no condition to take these guys on with 20 or so staples down my back, but my hand gun is in my night stand, which happens to be on the other side of the bed, then it dawned on me, I don't have a hand gun in my night stand. In my stupor I decided to get out of bed to check things out. As soon as my feet hit the floor, my senses began to come back to me. I felt concrete under my feet and it all came back to me, I live in a 1 story loft (no downstairs) and if someone were cleaning me out they would have a difficult time and therefore be making a lot more noise.

Turns out the noise was coming from my very odd neighbor who loves to play his saxophone at odd times, which wouldn't be so bad, but he only plays scales, over and over. He smokes like a fiend, including in the elevator, which irritates me to no end and drives this old beat up ford probe with dozens of coffee cups sitting on the dash board, not the kind you pick up at the quick mart, but the kind some people would have in their kitchen. His car also lacks a muffler and has there perpetual black smoke stains over the rear of his car.

I'm not sure what this 50+ year old was doing out at 4 am, but I'm sure it involved irritating more people than me.

Now I'm lying on the couch trying not to wake up AJ who is sleeping like an angel in the other room. Time for more MS contin and Valium.......

life sucks....at least for now

well it has been 1 week since my surgery, and all in all I guess I'm progressing well. I'm just bored to death. I've been doing a lot of walking as directed, but it is very easy to over do it. On rainy days, I have to trouble friends to come and drive me around so I can find a place to walk. Today, I'm just mentally and physically exhausted. I'm tired of being hyped up on meds, but If I don't take them I can't move. I can't do much of anything for myself. My laundry is piling up and I can't even carry it down to the washer to take care of it. For the most part, I prefer to do things for myself and do not like asking someone to do things for me. Today, being so bored, and needing to do some things, and being totally out of cash without an ATM within walking distance, I decided to drive.. that was amusing. I think I scared at least a dozen people to death and decided that I should drive in 2 lanes instead of one at a very slow speed.

Now lets talk about the body changes.... I am bruised from mid back all the way to midway down my ass. Not a pretty sight. I can not exercise with the exception of walking, which that in itself isn't much. I imagine that I will soon begin looking like Ethel Murmon.

I think I'm going to crawl under the covers and not come out for a week.