Bright spot in a sad situation..

Second post for today....

As some of you may know, my mom has yet to see Tekla. She is at home in Alabama caring for my now 94 year old grandmother who has dementia, heart failure and is essentially bedriden. My mother has been her caregiver for about 6 years now. The job is 24 hours a day. She has only taken time off once and that was a visit here for a weekend. I admire my mom for the care she has given my grandma.

Grandma has been on hospice for some time now. Her memory is touch and go, but my mom has shared pictures of Tekla and told my grandmother about her. She often looks at my mom at her most incoherent moments and says "I wish I could see that baby". The last few weeks her health has been declining at a more rapid pace. Very confused and most times not recognizing my mom. She has been talking to long gone family members (when she can speak) and she has lost about 30 pounds because she can no longer swallow properly but has long ago stated that she did not want a feeding tube.

Yesterday was touch and go, her breathing was erratic and she would not rest and was essentially incoherent. They began giving her pain medicine because she was so uncomfortable from her shortness of breath. I called today and my mom was taking a break and showering, so I spoke with the nursing assistant that was there with her. She held the phone to my grandmothers ear so I could talk to her. She said a few things like she always does "I'm still making it" and a few other things that were indecipherable because her speech is so slurred. I told her goodbye and ask her to tell mom I called, she then tried to ask something and I realized she didn't know who I was. I told her "this is Phillip, I love you grandma" her reply was, "how's that baby?" It is amazing that through all of this she remembers about Tekla, I wish there was a way I could let her hold Tekla one time, maybe this is what she is waiting for.....